Do you ever wake up from a dream and are convinced that everything you just saw was 100% real? You sit up, confused, and then the confusion turns to a whole bunch of other emotions you can’t control.

I don’t remember my dreams often, but the ones that I do are always sad or terrible in some way. My very vivid dreams often have a catastrophic effect on my mood the next day, solely because they feel extremely real.

Recently, I had a dream that had me fighting with myself not to lash out at my partner who was the antagonist in this dream that had me ready to burn down the world.

Imagine waking up and just going crazy at your partner for something they didn’t even do, as you can see it’s not adding up to a great situation.

The dream started with us at our “new” home and things were as they always are between us. A “friend” came to visit, and me being the trusting person that I am, told this friend and my boyfriend to go chill while I fix us something to snack on.

This is the part that had me going. In my dream, I hear loud music coming from one of the bedrooms, so as I’m coming down the passage I get to the room that has the music blaring from it, and the door is shut.

Opening the door, slowly, I walk into a scene that sent my heart right into my stomach both in my dream and in real life. Here, on my bed, are my boyfriend and my friend, with no clothes on, passionately kissing (like we don’t even kiss like this) and getting ready to get it on.

I dropped everything in my dream and burst into tears while hearing them try to explain what was happening while my boyfriend is in a sense begging me to understand how sorry he is for what I had just walked into.

Now I know it was only a dream, and that my partner isn’t cheating on me, but I cannot begin to describe the pain I felt, this was all real to me.

My brain hadn’t made the connection that it was simply a dream, and in the five seconds it took me to register, I had planned to give my partner a mouthful, and then pack my things and leave.

Not only did I wake up in a terrible mood but my anxiety had my heart racing, and my stomach turning like it had all really taken place.

Being cheated on is honestly one of my biggest fears, I’m sure it’s the same for many, and even though I hadn’t thought about my partner cheating or even about my friend that day, somehow my brain still managed to create this shitshow that unfolded before my eyes.

I’m glad it wasn’t real, but the pain I felt in my dream was very real and at the end of the day, I was the one that broke my heart.